Sometimes, if I'm totally honest, I get scared that if he's not in my social media profile photos, I'm suggesting he's not a part of me; if I forget to put his wedding ring on my right thumb in the morning, I'm neglecting him; If I can sing along to a song that once brought pain, my heart is forgetting.
But there's no getting away from whatever face I have on, whatever I wear, however much I sing or laugh or talk, he is a very part of me. His love has made me who I am, and the strength I never had but now know is not a sign of forgetting, but of learning to live with him being in but not in my life.
It's not leaving behind, it's stepping forward differently.
Sometimes love in action is impossible but it never dies in your heart.
7 years ago tomorrow Ems asked me out one highly exciting lunch hour.
The 17th.
Now 7 years.
Another 7.
A life changing 7.
"I've got something to tell you..." he said.
And now, I have so much to tell him.
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